You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land where there is no water.
"Come away," was the call in my heart. "Come with me and explore."
Leaving my bags in a corner heap, I raced out like when I was a kid, ready to play, and search out interesting objects and just BE for the moment before the demands of classes and meetings and gatherings lassoed me once again. Excitement bubbled up as I walked along the water's edge gathering interesting rocks, and examining animal prints. It had been so long since I simply allowed myself to be quiet, to explore, and to listen.
I'd become so dry, and wilted. This retreat, I knew, would be a time of tapping back into my source.
I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
I spent a lot of time walking, gathering interesting bits of nature's beauty. I walked with my Abba God in the cool of the evening, reconnecting, hearing, discussing, realigning. The much needed rest refreshed me, revived me and helped me to refocus my sights on what was really important.
It's so easy to get disoriented in daily life. So easy to let fears cloud your sights and pressure to lead you down shortcuts that take you off the path you are meant to travel. It's easy to let loose of his fingers and run ahead, or dig in your heels in the dirt in stubborn disobedience.
It's easy to get distracted by shiny objects. (Wants, comparisons, demands, goals)
I found his fingers and wrapped mine tightly around his. Can't say I'll never let go again, as I probably will. But it's refreshing to know he finds a way to bring us back to his side, time and again.